Scotland. Families meet.

Happy Easter! Everyone is resting or at their accommodation down the road, so I thought I would write for a couple minutes. This will help later after much more sightseeing and pictures happens, so I will unload some Scotland pictures here.

But first.

My parents came last Tuesday and then Wednesday le Rey and I took them to Scotland until late Friday night. I'll let the pictures do the talking. On a side note, I hate that my parents have to get older. I wish my parents were 45 forever. My dad couldn't walk very much in Scotland and we had to take lots of cabs. Anyone have any tips for handling this? It makes me so sad.

Second. This morning my family met le Rey's family.

Gulp.

I've not really been looking forward to this. I'm not sure why. Both sides are very nice, etc.......but I was just anticipating awkward silences, differing views on war (VERY different views from his dad and my dad, but luckily I have diverted those conversations), language barriers, someone saying something stupid like, "is South Africa a country?" (no one said that) and just the whole 'my dad is on medicine for depression and anxiety and is a shell of himself and doesn't really talk anymore and has nervous ticks but he's my dad and I love him and am protective of him' weighing on me.

You know. I was nervous.

This is why I stopped having parties and get-togethers a long time ago. I worry the whole time when different groups of people (college friends-work-other) are inter-mingling. Will they talk, will they have a good time, etc? Is there enough food? I can't enjoy myself.

So the meeting went fine. In hindsight I can see that. Did I enjoy today? Umm, not really. What a waste. Why do I do this to myself? Why can't I enjoy myself when I'm hosting? I just want to make sure everyone is happy!

You are probably all shaking your heads, ready to send me an email with the name of a good medication for these sorts of things. I am thinking the same as you. Anxiety. It is pretty obvious to me. This is more than the average, I'm doing all this wedding stuff and hosting our families kindof stuff.

I perhaps do have a larger amount of anxiety compared to the average person.

Did I mention the wedding is in 5 days? Why does there seem to be so much crap to do when I went for 'simple' in every choice I made?!!! small wedding. nearby. no. still so much to do.

Kelli

Easter